The Four Most Powerful Words to Me

I went quiet. The joyful busyness of the start of the school year, and the shift of the rhythm from long summer days to class meetings and notes and curriculum and cello practices and drop offs barely subsided... Our yearly family holiday to Earth Frequency Festival came upon us quicker than ever, it seemed, and all that school focus collided with building a festival trolley and cooking preparation days for a week of camping and washing and drying and packing and counting out our hard earned money into a daily budget and all this through a heat wave; And then we left at 3am and by 10am I was alone with the kids in an isolated playground in a small town with no nappies and no car and no food and the temperature was approaching forty degrees and Zai was suddenly at a doctors surgery, having caught a nasty infection in the barest nick of time not to be contagious and I had no idea what was going on and then he came back and was in a huge amount of pain and the temperature grew...